Oblivion

If only

I could sit

Outside, in the dark,

Every night, and

Be able to see

All the stars

My sky can hold.

Just to be reminded,

There is so much more

To the universe

Than infinity.

If only

I could be mad

Outside, in the dark,

Every night, and

Be able to ignore

All the words

You said to me.

Just to be reminded,

There is so much more

To life

Than poetry.

If only

I could be deceived

Outside, in the dark,

Every night, and

Be able to laugh at

All the pictures

You sent to me.

Just to be reminded,

There is so much more

To love

Than to love you.

But I am sorry

I have let my self down

“You must know that I do not love AND that I love you,

because everything alive has its two sides;

a word is one wing of the silence,

fire has its cold half.”